I desperatley needed to reach out to anyone who might be in my same boat or feel the way Im feeling after a recent girls trip i took with 6 of my girlfriends who happen to all be yoga instructors. (Skinny bitches were on vacation and theyre doing wall handstands in bikinis can you say intimidating) love them but I happen to be 5'8 and around 175. Now normally I am a very confident person. I feel my 175 lbs of curves are displaced evenly enough that I hide it well and dont look as big as I am.
Now we hit pool parties like crazy and maybe it was the cocktails or maybe i have a deluted sense of self confidence...but I felt comfortable enough to rock a bikini top and jean skirt next to these walking jillian michaels and still feel somewhat attractive. That was all until photos surfaced and while most were okay there was one that was just awful and someone felt the need to tag the picture as pregnancy. You can imagine my reaction I sat in my room and balled for 20 minutes..cursed facebook, and almost decided to delete my profile all together.
But then i thought to myself its time to make a change. I know I may never be one of those girls whos a size zero but Id like to get back to a healthy place and deff to a place where no one will label a picture im in as pregnancy. I feel if I can make it down to 150 I'll be rockin. At my height 150 is my awesome weight. Let me preffice by saying I have a thyorid condition and have been all over the weight board. Ive been the nicole richie type and a little chunky with my highest weight pushing 200. Its been a yo yo nightmare.
So if Ive managed to hold your attention this long Id like to say thank you and ask for any form of advice you may have to offer. I feel like ive tried so many diets/work outs boot camps and only get temporary results but have never managed to get to that place where Im happy with my weight. Never the yay goal weight moment. Since most of my friends are at their goal weights its hard for me to confide in them about my problems and insecurities...so Here I am looking for help/advice/a weight loss buddy and fellow blogger to help me stay accountable and take on this weight loss battle.